The past 4 days uggghhh...

So around last week I started to feel a lot of pain in my stomach and in my lower back, but I sweated it out... 

So last Friday the pain got worse and I couldn't hardly stand up straight, but the stubborn self that I am worked through it and just got off and went to bed..

Saturday I was fine again..

Sunday my best friend whom works at a different wendy's location came to ours to help us out, i was so excited that I was getting to work with her again... But I woke up kind of dizzy. 

As the night progressed and the time came to around 7:15 I was in the office in the floor with my head against my knees the whole room was spending... I called my fiance to take me to the hospital..

So he came and got me and we went to Gordon County E.R.. 

              They sent me home diagnosed with stress related Migraine and dizzyness, and a work note to be absent for a couple days...

BUT then I woke up on monday I was so weak I couldnt even stand to get out of bed... DOES THIS SOUND LIKE STRESS TO ANYONE LOL>.....

So I was rushed back to the e.r they did all kinds of blood test and a urine test..  By now I haven't been able to eat or drink in a day and a half

I then had the better explanation for my symptoms all FOUR explanations.... 

                 1. Veritigo- Which my mom has severely

                 2.  Virus-throwing up everything even fluids

                 3. Dehydration- from the virus

                 4. And a infection, so severe that its almost really effecting my kidneys- this was causing my back and stomach to hurt

What a week..

Then I tried to return to work on tues and my boss told me "You have to do the schedule!" 

Our schedule is done on a bar graph like a puzzle almost...

So it tripped my Vertigo again.... YAY

THEN went to school on wedn and its midterm time!!

WHAT A WAY TO SPEND FOUR DAYS!!  : )  : )

Funky Picture From Class

Wow! what the heck is this!

In class today we were shown a picture of, well thats the problem im not quite sure lol?

It looks like maybe a mascot (my favorite color) of some sort. Maybe a traditional holiday costume of some sort, Maybe a memorial, im not quite sure but it looks like a very litte picture of someone on the bottom part of it....

Alot of graffiti in the picture this makes me believe that it is taken in the bad part of town.

hmmm... Leaves you guessing...

Maybe Mexico perhaps...

Valentines Day...

My Valentines Day!

 Well my day didnt exactly go the way me and my fiance planned it... We were planning on going to see "the vow" but we got behind on time...

I got up at 6:30 and got ready to go to work... Got to work at 7:30 and was behind from the moment I walked in the door, but I seemed to get every thing done by the time we opened at 10:30..

As you know from previous post I work at wendys, so lunch on Vday was sllllloooowww sllllooowww slllooowww, nobody out that day at least not at fast food I guess.

So two thirty came around and the other manager came in so I came on home...

Then I played with the monster for about an hour and a half by then it was almost 4:15..

Knowing that the movie started at 7:00 we dropped the baby of with my mom, and headed to steak and shake in acworth, I had a craving for a milkshake : )...

We stood in line for almost 25 minutes and then waited to be served and get our food for almost 30...

So needless to say we were way behind schedule so I told him lets go do something else since we wouldve been late to the movie so we drove all the way to kennesaw to us play, guess what they were remodeling so all the arcade games were being replaced and a 40 minute wait for bowling so knowing that we had to get the baby at 930 I was like well this wont work either...

So we headed back down the interstate to look for something to do and finally I just said lets just buy a movie and take it home... SO this concluded my vday, but every minute spent with my fiance and my family is a cherished moment SO it was a wonderful vday!!!!!!!

My thoughts

                     What makes a confident and outspoken person? I was raised in a family that didn't
believe in spankings and punishments. I learned my values from my mother. My head was always
in a book, I never had a group of friends, larger than about five, in school. We were taught how
to be smart and look towards our future. I wonder sometimes if this is one reason why I am shy
and sometimes afraid of life though.I never went to a party or experienced the sleepovers most 
kids do. My head was in my studies and my future. Then my mom took me out of public school
in the ninth grade and I started to homeschooling. This, while suppose to be helping me, made
me have an even bigger wall up. Entering college last year, I was scared to look up as I walked 
through the halls. I may have came off as a rude person because I didn't talk. I started working
fast food, this has helped me a great bit. This is the only thing good about working in 
fast food (smile). You are around tons of people each and every day, so you learn to
talk. Then last year I had my son. He has made me realize that If I keep acting like 
 the world is a scary place, he may think the same. I want him to have the best life he 
could have. Being sheltered and scared of anyone and anything is not what I want for him.  
This semester started in January and I have already made a few friends in each of my classes. 
This encourages me to be more open and learn that it is okay to speak to others. I think my 
biggest problem is my self confidents. I don't like the way I feel about myself so sometimes
its easier to hide. I want this to change about me. You should love yourself the way you are, 
because you are unique. My fiance has helped me a lot with my confidents. I love him for that. 
You have to love yourself and be comfortable in your ownskin before others see you 
that way.






Magan~Elizabeth

My Beautiful Son..

This is a letter to my son,

Jonathan,

      I remember the day I read my pregnancy test. I wasn't really expecting two lines to appear, but they did. I called Nana into the bathroom and told her. Then I told daddy and he cried..

      I remember the day you came into this world, that was the happiest day of my life. You were so small and so fragile, and the sweetest baby I could have ever ask for...

      I remember the first day you started reaching for people. You threw your little head back and spread out those skinny little arms... I was the first person you ever did this too. lol you love your mommy.

      And then the day you finally got to eat real baby food.. I sat you in your little bumpy and you chowed down, now we cant feed you fast enough...

      Then you learned how to hug and kiss, this is mommy's favorite... Its more like attack mode with hair pulling and all, but REALLY what could be better than that. This is probably your favorite thing to do now KISSY  KISSY HUGGY HUGGY...

       Now your seating up by yourself, getting so independent.. Your gonna be like mommy with that. You already want your own space.. Tears... 

       And you have learned the perfection of screaming at the top of your lungs, but its a beautiful sound..

        Only a couple of months till your up on all fours, and getting into everything. Is mommy ready for this, I don't no if i am.. Seems like times passing so fast...Mommy don't even wanna blink. I might miss something spectacular that you do...

       Your 6 1/2 months old and i'm already having to start the planning for your first birthday where I will have everything just perfect for you. No matter the time that passes you will always be mommy's lil monster and i'm here for you through thick and thin...

Mommy Loves You Baby!!

my first few weeks back to college

Well it is my third week back to school from skipping a semester having the baby...
 
I like my english and math class alot. Spanish is soooo sooo hard.
Why does my teacher speek spanish the whole time when it is a elementary spanish class, WE CANNOT UNDERSTAND YOU!!

Im actually getting the extra help with tutors, and on wedn im getting out of class help with my spanish teacher this semester. Last semester I was to shy to even speek to anyone even my teachers. Low self esteem isnt a good thing to have in college. I failed math because of it. My baby has really changed me. I dont want him to grow up scared of everything and everyone.


My first essay is due in english on wedn and im pretty confident about it. I got partnered with two guys in my english class and today we had to read eachothers papers. Just so happens that I wrote about the birth of my son. LOL I bet they enjoyed reading about that.

I made a 100 on my math exam, so that was good. My math professor really helps by breaking down everything really good.

I really hope my work doesnt get in the way of me going to school.
I know its gonna be really hard to get everything done but determination is every thing when you have your goals in place...

I think I can do it!!!!

Now that im having a great time in school, and starting to believe in myself which is a graphic change from last semester, work sucks!!!!

50 Hours of babysitting the wendys crew a week..ugghhhh this degree is really gonna pay off, I wish there was something in my field that I could begin before I graduated... Fast food is killing me!!!!!!

Juggling a 50 hour a week job, college, and being a new mommy

A week in my shoes....

As I wake up Monday morning I get the day started at seven o'clock when my six month old baby boy starts yelling at the top of his lungs, "Dadda, Dadda, Dadda". This makes me strong enough to get thru my hectic week just waking up to my Lil buddy. I get the both of us ready, and off to school I go, math class at 10 am with my new lovely professor Mr. Hawkins, then a little break to call my fiance and talk to my little man then off to English in Mrs. Lindbergs class. Then after English I'm off to the most scariest class of all Spanish... then study study study in the library till about five. Finally my day at school is over and i go get my son from the babysitters.... My day is complete just mommy day now.. And then I awake to another day...

As I wake up on Tuesday morning I get the day started all the same seven a.m sharp "DADDA,DADDA,DADDA". With those big blue eyes looking up to me. Today I have to work, I'm an assistant store manager for Wendy's and as an assistant my minimum hours to work a week is fifty hours.... So I get me and my son ready take him to the babysitters and off to work I go.. I clock in at eight deal with all the immaturity that fast food brings to the table. and at six I get off and pick up my son...And study after he goes to sleep.

As I wake up on Wednesday it is basically a repeat of Monday. seven am wake up call, school at ten, then off to get the monster...

As I wake up on Thursday... Wake up get me and the baby ready, we play till around one thirty then work at two and I dont get off till 1twelve thirty a.m...


Friday thru Sunday is a repeat of thursday.....

Work School Mommy Fiance,,, My everyday..

And I wouldnt have it any other way!!!!